thoughts for today..

it's about learning to love the person we found.
not to love the person whom we want to love.
because he or she may not be a perfect person.

love them for who they are now, not for who they were or who they wish to be.

then, this is what the quote "love someone for better or for worse" means. we accept them as they are. not expecting anything in return.

we must learn to give more than to receive from one another. we must learn to appreciate every littlest thing the other person did for us, not to mention to appreciate all the big favors they did for us.

we must learn to greet him/her nicely everytime. we must love and touch them everyday eventhough the person have hurt us. it may be hard to do, but we have to do it anyway...

with that simple tips, insyaAllah, we shall have our love till..
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.
.
.
.
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... forever :)

p/s: sayang.. thank you for everything.. and for accepting me for who i am now..

commit-or-not-to-commit checklist update..

Referring to my previous post, i think i can update the man's requirement before he can commit to a woman (based on my observation.. hehe)..

REQUIREMENT #1:
He needs to be READY to commit. Remember, it's about WHEN, not WHO.

REQUIREMENT #2:
Having a woman who enjoys and admires his lust for life, not condemns him for it.

REQUIREMENT #3:
His aims and desires must be at least basically the same as yours.

REQUIREMENT #4:
He knows that you - like everyone else - have flaws, but loves you anyway.



hmmmm..... Requirement #3 is still in process of observation and action. heheheh.. ;)

Legend:-
CHECKED!
In Progress

jalan-jalan cari nasi minyak..

well, there you go. another wedding reception invitation. this time, located in Bukit Rambai, Melaka. never been there before eventho i have been in Melaka for 4+ years. maklumlah, jarang berjalan. asyik2 MP, JJ, Kotamas (skang dh nama lain, lupe lak...), plaza hang tuah. that's it. i am done. heh..

anyway, Shah Fitri and wifey invited me to his wedding on Nov 30th. congratulations!!!

and this is my first 'trip' with my D. seronok gi jenjalan ni, especially with someone we care about (other than family laaa..) all in all, we had fun and we had the change to spend some quality time together. i mean, this is more meaningful. hehe.. and surprisingly.. we found a kampung somewhere near the reception, with the name 'Kampung Setulang Daing'. waaaaa.. apa lagi, ade sorang tu kembang kuncup la. Jom kita tgk aksi orang tu..

this is my favorite shot :)

sukanya dia.. mmuah ;)

lepas wedding tu, kami ronda2 di kota melaka dan singgah di MP dan Jusco Ayer Keroh. we had fun, we went down the memory lane whereby we told each other stories and we showed the places we've been to. so nice. but then we were young and naive.

we had a nice dinner at Jusco, and then we went back to KL by 930pm. all in all, we had a great time together. i never felt like this. he makes me so happy and insyaAllah, we hope for the best.

jangan ada dusta

Ketika pertama kujumpa denganmu
Bukankah pernah kutanyakan padamu kasih
Takkan kecewakah kau pada diriku
Takkan menyesalkah kau hidup denganku kasih

Memang kau bukan yang pertama bagiku
Pernah satu hati mengisi hidupku dulu
Dan kini semua kau katakan padaku
Jangan ada dusta di antara kita kasih

Semua terserah padamu aku begini adanya
Kuhormati keputusanmu, apapun yang akan
Kau katakan, sebelum terlanjur kita jauh
Melangkah, kau katakan saja..

[Broery Marantika & Dewi Yull - Jangan Ada Dusta Antara Kita]

my prayer..

Allah Yang Maha Pemurah, Segala puji bagiMu, Engkau telah menciptakan dia dan mempertemukan hamba-Mu dengannya.
Terimakasih untuk saat-saat indah yang boleh kami nikmati bersama.
Terimakasih untuk setiap pertemuan yang boleh kami lalui bersama.
Terimakasih untuk setiap saat-saat yang lalu.
Hamba-Mu datang bersujud dihadapan-Mu,
Sucikan hati hamba-Mu yaa Allah, sehingga dapat melaksanakan kehendak dan rencana-Mu

Yaa Allah, jika hamba-Mu bukan pemilik tulang rusuknya,
janganlah biarkan hamba-Mu merindukan kehadirannya.
Janganlah biarkan hamba-Mu melabuhkan hati hamba-Mu di hatinya.
Kikislah pesonanya dari pelupuk mata hamba-Mu
dan usirlah dia dari relung hati hamba-Mu.
Gantilah damba kerinduan dan cinta yang bersemayam di dada ini dengan kasih kepada-Mu yang tulus dan murni.
Tolonglah hamba-Mu agar dapat mengasihinya sebagai sahabat

Tetapi jika Kau ciptakan dia untuk hamba-Mu, yaa Allah,
tolong satukan hati kami.
Bantulah hamba-Mu untuk mencintai, mengerti dan menerima dia seutuhnya.
Berikan hamba-Mu kesabaran, ketekunan, dan kesungguhan untuk memenangkan hatinya.
Urapilah dia agar dia juga mencintai, mengerti dan mau menerima hamba-Mu
dengan segala kelebihan dan kekurangan hamba-Mu sebagaimana yang telah Kau ciptakan.
Yakinkanlah dia bahwa hamba-Mu sungguh-sungguh mencintai dan rela membagi suka dan duka hamba-Mu dengan dia.

Yaa Allah Maha Pengasih, dengarlah doa hamba-Mu ini.
Lepaskanlah hamba-Mu dari keraguan ini menurut kasih dan kehendak-Mu.
Allah Yang Maha Kekal, hamba-Mu tahu Engkau senantiasa memberikan yang terbaik buat hamba-Mu.
Luka dan keraguan yang hamba-Mu alami pasti ada hikmahnya.
Perasaan kasih ini mengajar hamba-Mu untuk hidup makin dekat pada-Mu, untuk lebih peka terhadap suara-Mu yang membimbing hamba-Mu menuju terang-Mu.
Ajarlah hamba-Mu untuk tetap setia dan sabar menanti tibanya waktu yang telah Engkau tentukan.
Jadilah kehendak-Mu dan bukan kehendak hamba-Mu yang jadi dalam setiap bahagian hidup hamba-Mu, yaa Allah.

to see the real you..

You ask me if I love you and I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you on what you say or do
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much and I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer, still trapped within my truths
A hesitant prizefighter still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much and I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you and drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through and hold you endlessly

At times I understand you and I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
and I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters, still searching for a friend,
A brother or a sister, but then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much and I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

[Dan Hill, Sometimes When We Touch]

jom pekena roti parata..

i was out to KL that night. stayback for an important meeting. well, tentatively i planning to excuse myself by 10pm, but the meeting was dragging until 1040pm. o dear.. i thought.

then by 1045pm i texted him, sounded something like "D, i dh abih meeting. D kat mana tu?".
he replied "D kat umah, umah pelangi d'sara. heheh..".

O.M.G!!

i terus jumped up dan terus drive pulang ke damansara. alhamdulillah, kereta tak banyak masa tu dan jalan agak lengang. plus, traffic lights sume memberi lampu hijau, lebih memudahkan dan mempercepatkan perjalanan saya. selalunya drive dari KL-damansara amik masa lebih kurang 30 minit, tapi malam tu, i drive dlm masa 20minit. boleh dikatakan pecut gakla. keluar around 11pm, sampai rumah 1120pm. tapi seingat i byk jugakla adegan cilok mencilok. huhuhu... D pesan, suh bawak kete slow2, jgn nk cepat je. dia boleh tunggu katanya.

actually, dia dh berada di umah pelangi for more than half an hour. giloss.. mana i tak pecut..! kesian dia tunggu lama2.

so, there we were, we spent time for about a few hours around my neighborhood. D ajak makan roti parata (roti canai lerr) kat Kayu Nasi Kandar Sunway Damansara...

Ni la roti canai yg dipesan.. utk 'D' sorang lak tu. huhu.. sekali makan 2 keping tuhhh..

berselera sungguh orang tu. hihi.. ;)

we were out for a few hours. as usual.. when the time comes for him to leave, it was REALLY difficult to let him go, everytime we are together. uhuhuhu...

really miss him~! huhu..

whops..

ade orang tu kata, suka giler dengar In Team ni. asyik diulang2 berkali-kali. tak puas katanya.
jom tgk apa yang best sgt tu. hikhikhik..

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tak perlu aku ragui
sucinya cinta yang kau beri
kita saling kasih mengasihi
dengan setulus hati

ayah ibu merestui
menyarung cincin di jari
dengan rahmat dari Ilahi
cinta kita pun bersemi

sebelum diijabkabulkan
syariat tetap membataskan
pelajari ilmu rumahtangga
agar kita lebih bersedia
menuju hari yang bahgia

kau tahu ku merinduimu
ku tahu kau menyintaiku, oh kasih
bersabarlah sayang
saat indah kan menjelma jua

kita akan disatukan
dengan ikatan pernikahan, oh kasih
di sana kita bina
tugu cinta mahligai bahagia

semoga cinta kita
di dalam redha Ilahi
berdoalah selalu
moga jodoh berpanjangan..

[In Team, Kasih Kekasih]

glimsp of a moment..

291008 - kami ke kopitiam yang sekarang ni sedang meningkat popular di sekitar KL. ada kenangannya.

D : Bukan ke kat Telawi ke??
S : No la.. kat ngan condo kat V.A tu haa. orang cakap tak caye. huhuhu...
D : Ha'ah la, ni la yg 'D' nk cari tu. salah lokasi rupanya.. buat penat je pusing2 kat Telawi tadi.
S : Haa, tau pun...huhu

hehehe.. ;)

Dia makan nasi lemak rendang. dia ckp tak cukup pedas tu.. huh..

Saya makan bihun ala2 maggie ni je. ntah apa namanya pun lupe daaa.. heh

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sejenak masa bersama, sambil menikmati hot coffee. eventho nampak sempoi, tapi meninggalkan kenangan yang bermakna. heh..

wahai 'coffee-partner', seronok menikmati kopi & luangkan masa bersama mu.

nak coffee lagi...?? jom! ^_^

[mcDonald Mutiara Damansara, 2230]

always yours..

mungkin ini yang dia mahu katakan pada saya.. harap-harapnya begitulah.

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hapus air matamu
aku tak ingin kau menangis lagi sayang
yakinkan hati diantara resahmu
diriku takkan memilih meninggalkanmu

sekian waktu bersama
tak mudah tuk menepis semua kenyataan

kita berbeda jalani keyakinan
tapi kau yang kuinginkan dari segalanya

di setiap rinduku hanya memanggilmu
kuyakin kau pun mengerti
ku tak ingin menanggalkan hati

sayangku dengarkan aku
tak mungkin ku melepasmu
kan kupertahankan kau cintaku
dan semua air matamu yang berarti di hidupku selalu

sayangku dengarkan aku
tak mungkin ku melepasmu
bawalah cintaku bersamamu
karena ku tetap milikmu selamanya dan abadi selalu..

[Dygta - Tetap Milikmu]

cound not ask for more

alhamdulillah.. :)
hope for the best. aminn....

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Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

Looking in your eyes
Seeing all I need
Everything you are is everything to me

These are the moments
I know heaven must exist
These are the moments I know all I need is this
I have all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
Every prayer has been answered
Every dream I have's come true

And right here in this moment is right where I'm meant to be
Here with you here with me

These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I've got all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

I could not ask for more than the love you give me
'Coz it's all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

[Edwin McCain, Could Not Ask For More]

teman wanita idaman :)

Five (5) 'Great-Girlfriend-Material' Characteristics:-

Trait #1: You strike the balance between appreciative and independent.

The trick is to strike a happy balance. You want to allow him to indulge his masculine desire to protect, provide, and give pleasure, but without making him feel like you're taking him for granted.

Rules of thumb : appreciate, enjoy, but NEVER expect. And make sure he knows it.

Trait #2: You're happy to let him have his own life

men need to know that, should things between you ever reach that kind of level, that you'll still be OK with him having interests and friends of his own. He needs to know that he won't need to account for his every move, or apologize to you for having a late night out every so often.

The trick to maintaining a happy status quo? It's called Live and Let Live. Men will value a partner who WANTS to hang out with them, but doesn't NEED them to be around - someone who enjoys their company when they're around, and is happy to get on with her own life when they're not.

So be affectionate, by all means - just don't translate "affection" into "neediness".

Trait #3: You Keep Yourself Together - But Don't Take It Too Far

The ideal girlfriend will keep herself looking tidy and together (because SHE wants to, not because HE wants her to) but won't need an exhaustive 2-hour primping routine just to go grab brunch together.

Trait #4 You Don't Load Him Down With Your Insecurities

We all have our low moments, when all we want is to be hugged and told that everything's going to be OK. But you have to give it time. You can't overload the poor bloke with too much responsibility, too early on - you want him to feel like a boyfriend, not a babysitter!

It's hard to know where to draw the line - you want to be able to trust this person with your true feelings, but you don't want to actually drive him away. if you're interested in scoring "great girlfriend" points, you'll do things that show how confident and secure you are in yourself - not things that showcase your insecurities.

Remember, how we see ourselves sets the tone for how others see us.

Trait #5: He is not your project (and you both know it)

Instead of trying to fix him, show him how supportive you're likely to be as a long-term girlfriend. Make him feel GOOD about himself. Show him how you can be an asset to his self-esteem, social status, and life. If he shows you a project he's working on, reads you some of the novel he's writing in his spare time, or lets you take a peek at his amateur cartoon strips, be enthusiastic in your praise and support of his efforts.

And save your "suggestions" on his eating habits, wardrobe, and alcoholic excesses ... do you want to be the fun-loving companion that he loves to spend time with, or the authoritarian mother-figure who sparks irritation and resentment?

Men get enough competition from their male friends that they appreciate support from you all the more. Showing that you're the kind of lady who'll make him feel good about himself will show him that you're likely to be a supportive long-term girlfriend, too.

[taken from http://www.meetyoursweet.com/]

aiks.. senangnyer..

erm, satu lagi lembaran baru telah bermula, start hari ni. heh..
satu benda baru telah berlaku sejak dua menjak ni. hm, cammane nk cite eh.

sudah lama saya tidak menikmati perasaan ini.. bila ade orang tu kata, "saya mencintai awak, menyayangi awak tak ubah seperti saya menjaga diri dan harta benda saya".

O.M.G!

saya sudah mengagak sebenarnya, tapi ragu-ragu. tapi akhirnya, terluah jugak cerita sebenarnya. beliau mempunyai kebanyakan criteria yang saya cari dalam seorang suami, seorang kekasih, seorang sahabat. karisma, bijak, kelakar, innocent, bertanggungjawab, kacak (heh!), baik hati, lemah lembut, protective, ramah (over!), berpengetahuan tinggi dlm agama. he has it, eventho masih ade flaws-nya. tapi kita terima dgn hati terbuka. mindset kene betul.

beliau menyampaikan hasrat utk mengambil saya sebagai surinya suatu hari nanti, perhaps dlm 1-2 tahun ni kut. huhuhuhu.. isit for real? beliau ingin membawa saya ke rumah ibubapanya di selatan tanahair dalam masa terdekat ni. well, ade kenduri kendara so, why not berkenal2an ek. no harm what.

Ya Allah, andainya dia Kau jadikan untukku, mudahkanlah perjalananan kami, dekatkanlah hati kami berdua, mudahkanlah untuk kami menuju jalan bahagia, sentiasa mengingatiMu.

Amin..

better left unsaid..

dear,
i am so glad that you've found what you're looking for. don't thank me, but thank God. because of His will, we bumped each other, because of His will we met each other, bacause of His will you discovered the unknown. the unknown that may bring you happiness. i am so happy for you.

friend,
i am so glad we've found each other, getting to know each other. we get along pretty well and i hope that will last forever. i wouldn't want to let you go.

dearest,
you may not be perfect, none of us may not. but it doesn't mean that we cannot accept one another. carry on, just be ourselves. thank you for accepting me for who i am. and i am honored to accept you as who and what you are. not for someone you wanted to be. but then, there are things, for now, better left unsaid. for both of us. might be too soon to be reveiled. but deep in my heart, i am happy being just being with you. u have always made my day, made me laugh, gave me precious reminders and guidance, in every single day since i met you. please, don't ever let me go.

nevertheless,
it we are meant to be, the time will come. but i hope, with His bless, i would to have you for my own. never stop trying, never stop believing, never stop have faith in Him that everything happened has reasons.

anyway, thank you for everything, dear friend..

aman..tenang...?

sejak dua menjak ni, perjalanan hari saya lebih 'aman'. walaupun still, ada hickups di sana sini, tapi saya tetap maintain cool. kalau dulu, kebiasaannya, kalau ade hickup sikit je, mesti saya dh gabra. sekarang ni cam takde gabra sgt, well, takde se-horror mcm dulu kan. lebih cool dan tenang. :))

saya rasa 'blessed' atas segala yang terjadi pada saya. tak kira yang baik mahupun yang tidak baik. pasti ada hikmahnya. saya sgt bernasib baik sbb masih diberi peluang untuk memperbetulkan kesilapan saya, masih diberi masa untuk memperbaiki diri. masih diberi peluang untuk mengenali dan 'explore' perkara baru (hopefully yg baik2 shj) serta mengenali orang yang baik-baik yang boleh dijadikan guidance atau panduan.

syukur alhamdulillah.

saya harap, dan saya akan berusaha untuk menjadi lebih baik dari semalam dan melakukan sesuatu yang sebaiknya yang saya boleh. dengan support family & kawan2 yang setia dan memahami, itulah intipati atau rumusan yang terbaik untuk saya menjalani hari-hari saya dengan lebih gembira dan tenang insyaAllah.

di samping, semestinya, dan masih berusaha mencapainya : hati yang sentiasa mengingati DIA.

segala yang baik, datang daripada DIA. yang tidak baik adalah dari diri kita sendiri.

wallahualam.

bila lagi nie...

bila la agaknye dapat makan lagi kat Nasi Lemak Antarabangsa, Kampung Baru KL nie yek.. ada orang tu kata nak belanja.. lagi.. hehehe.. ;)

p/s: terima kasih en.zul [bukan nama sebenar].. belanja makan nasi lemak kat belakang dewan [dewan ape ekkk.. hihi]. you know who you are ;)

berehat sebentar..

Ahad, 21 September 2008..

hehe, masa ni nk berbuka puasa kat IKEA Mutiara Damansara. sikit punya ramai orang beratur nk beli kupon berbuka di Cafe IKEA tu. buffet rm15 per head. agak murah sehh. bukan orang sebarangan tau yang boleh masuk ke dalam cafe untuk menikmati buffet berbuka puasa itu.. hanya mereka yang menampal pelekat pada lengan baju, atau dahi atau tangan atau mana2 bahagian badan yang difikirkan sesuai, sahaja yang dibenarkan masuk. so, last2 AJ yg nak tunggu dlm barisan. dengan kata lain, AJ lah yang nak belanja kami semua. eheheh..

saya, ibubapa dan Armand pun berjalan2 la dlm showroon situ. armand beriya-iya le ke satu spot dipamerkan kerusi rehat yang bermacam jenis (setiap jenis denn tak reti nk menyebut namanya.. heh..). turut menjerit dari kejauhan, memanggil saya dan To'ki nya untuk mencuba kerusi2 tersebut. dan ini lah aksi kedua-dua beranak nie :

lepas tu, konon nk eksyen kut, mengatakan "Armand has 2 massage chairs at home, back in Bangi..." ahahaaha.. right..

last2 tak jadi pun nk berbuka kat Cafe IKEA tu, sbb dh penuh sgt2. so, hajat nk pakai sticker pelekat hijau kat baju, konon-konon mcm VVIP la, tak kesampaian. huhu..

tapi sebagai dalang gantinya, kami berbuka dengan hidangan HOT Wrap di perkarangan The Curve.. sempoi giler, just order je Wrap yg diminati (actually ni 1st time saya merasai makanan di gerai 'comel' itu) - Chicken Cheese Crispy Wrap - dan segelas Milo/Teh Limau Ais. Kakak yang kat gerai tu membuka radio untuk mendengar azan Maghrib. then, that's it. itulah juadah berbuka kami pada hari itu. rasa cam seronok lak sesekali mcm tu ek. hihi..

then, after Maghrib, we were off to Sunway Damansara, to JOM SANTAI Restaurant. pun best jugak.. i love the food they serve there. dan kinda in reasonable n affortable price too. utk kami 4 orang dewasa makan, tak sampai rm50. Boleh laa..

okay, next time i'll write about my experience @ Jom Santai, Sunway Damansara k..

chiow for now~!

selamat berpuasa

whoa, so long i haven't updated my writings here. quite a while, and there were many things happened. erm, well.. lets cut the stories short shall we.

hm, it almost the end of ramadhan actually, so i would like to wish "Salam Ramadhan n Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir & Batin".. and during this holy month, i get the chance to be with my beloved family, here with me in KL. we have a nice buka puasa session together. and not to forget, my dear friends.. we also had a good time buka puasa together and for the first time, we had it at my new place @ Pelangi Damansara. ;)

and during the fasting month, i also learnt that, the past is past which cannot and will not be coming back again. all the bitter sweet memories has left an impact in my life which i learnt a lot. i learnt that, every single thing that happen in our life MUST have a reason. that's the rule we can't change because HE, God the Almighty, knows what's best for us. all the unexpected things, whether good or bad, must have reason behind it. HE wants us to learn from our mistakes because HE loves us very much. and HE showed me something, that what had happened to me in my previous experience, is not the best for me.

Alhamdulillah... Thank You Allah... :)

so now, shall i move on and open another new chapter in my book of life.. a new, fresh page ;)

sometimes.. we' ve gotta..

Sometimes we've gotta run away so we can see who will run after us.
Sometimes we've gotta talk quieter so we can see who's listening.
Sometimes we've gotta step up in a fight so we can see who is by our side.
Sometimes we've gotta make wrong decisions so we can see who is there to fix it.

Sometimes we've gotta let go of the one we love just to see if they love us enough for them to come back.

I think these make sense, especially the last one.. ;)

..Sir Patrick..

Suddenly today.. i feel that i miss 'Sir Patrick' so much. Never been in this way before. Hope that Sir Patrick is doing well today, and the following days coming.

I also feel that for this time being i have to sort of ''let it go", and enjoy myself. If the feelings and the moments we had were all true, it will come back. If it's not.. then it is actually never meant to be.

But at least, those are happy moments.. I won't forget every single second. It has touched my life differently. Sir Patrick has made me so happy.

Thank You Sir Patrick.. Hope you'll find what you are looking for and I'll be happy for you no matter what. Take care my friend..