cound not ask for more

alhamdulillah.. :)
hope for the best. aminn....

-----######------

Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

Looking in your eyes
Seeing all I need
Everything you are is everything to me

These are the moments
I know heaven must exist
These are the moments I know all I need is this
I have all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
Every prayer has been answered
Every dream I have's come true

And right here in this moment is right where I'm meant to be
Here with you here with me

These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I've got all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

I could not ask for more than the love you give me
'Coz it's all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

[Edwin McCain, Could Not Ask For More]

teman wanita idaman :)

Five (5) 'Great-Girlfriend-Material' Characteristics:-

Trait #1: You strike the balance between appreciative and independent.

The trick is to strike a happy balance. You want to allow him to indulge his masculine desire to protect, provide, and give pleasure, but without making him feel like you're taking him for granted.

Rules of thumb : appreciate, enjoy, but NEVER expect. And make sure he knows it.

Trait #2: You're happy to let him have his own life

men need to know that, should things between you ever reach that kind of level, that you'll still be OK with him having interests and friends of his own. He needs to know that he won't need to account for his every move, or apologize to you for having a late night out every so often.

The trick to maintaining a happy status quo? It's called Live and Let Live. Men will value a partner who WANTS to hang out with them, but doesn't NEED them to be around - someone who enjoys their company when they're around, and is happy to get on with her own life when they're not.

So be affectionate, by all means - just don't translate "affection" into "neediness".

Trait #3: You Keep Yourself Together - But Don't Take It Too Far

The ideal girlfriend will keep herself looking tidy and together (because SHE wants to, not because HE wants her to) but won't need an exhaustive 2-hour primping routine just to go grab brunch together.

Trait #4 You Don't Load Him Down With Your Insecurities

We all have our low moments, when all we want is to be hugged and told that everything's going to be OK. But you have to give it time. You can't overload the poor bloke with too much responsibility, too early on - you want him to feel like a boyfriend, not a babysitter!

It's hard to know where to draw the line - you want to be able to trust this person with your true feelings, but you don't want to actually drive him away. if you're interested in scoring "great girlfriend" points, you'll do things that show how confident and secure you are in yourself - not things that showcase your insecurities.

Remember, how we see ourselves sets the tone for how others see us.

Trait #5: He is not your project (and you both know it)

Instead of trying to fix him, show him how supportive you're likely to be as a long-term girlfriend. Make him feel GOOD about himself. Show him how you can be an asset to his self-esteem, social status, and life. If he shows you a project he's working on, reads you some of the novel he's writing in his spare time, or lets you take a peek at his amateur cartoon strips, be enthusiastic in your praise and support of his efforts.

And save your "suggestions" on his eating habits, wardrobe, and alcoholic excesses ... do you want to be the fun-loving companion that he loves to spend time with, or the authoritarian mother-figure who sparks irritation and resentment?

Men get enough competition from their male friends that they appreciate support from you all the more. Showing that you're the kind of lady who'll make him feel good about himself will show him that you're likely to be a supportive long-term girlfriend, too.

[taken from http://www.meetyoursweet.com/]

aiks.. senangnyer..

erm, satu lagi lembaran baru telah bermula, start hari ni. heh..
satu benda baru telah berlaku sejak dua menjak ni. hm, cammane nk cite eh.

sudah lama saya tidak menikmati perasaan ini.. bila ade orang tu kata, "saya mencintai awak, menyayangi awak tak ubah seperti saya menjaga diri dan harta benda saya".

O.M.G!

saya sudah mengagak sebenarnya, tapi ragu-ragu. tapi akhirnya, terluah jugak cerita sebenarnya. beliau mempunyai kebanyakan criteria yang saya cari dalam seorang suami, seorang kekasih, seorang sahabat. karisma, bijak, kelakar, innocent, bertanggungjawab, kacak (heh!), baik hati, lemah lembut, protective, ramah (over!), berpengetahuan tinggi dlm agama. he has it, eventho masih ade flaws-nya. tapi kita terima dgn hati terbuka. mindset kene betul.

beliau menyampaikan hasrat utk mengambil saya sebagai surinya suatu hari nanti, perhaps dlm 1-2 tahun ni kut. huhuhuhu.. isit for real? beliau ingin membawa saya ke rumah ibubapanya di selatan tanahair dalam masa terdekat ni. well, ade kenduri kendara so, why not berkenal2an ek. no harm what.

Ya Allah, andainya dia Kau jadikan untukku, mudahkanlah perjalananan kami, dekatkanlah hati kami berdua, mudahkanlah untuk kami menuju jalan bahagia, sentiasa mengingatiMu.

Amin..

better left unsaid..

dear,
i am so glad that you've found what you're looking for. don't thank me, but thank God. because of His will, we bumped each other, because of His will we met each other, bacause of His will you discovered the unknown. the unknown that may bring you happiness. i am so happy for you.

friend,
i am so glad we've found each other, getting to know each other. we get along pretty well and i hope that will last forever. i wouldn't want to let you go.

dearest,
you may not be perfect, none of us may not. but it doesn't mean that we cannot accept one another. carry on, just be ourselves. thank you for accepting me for who i am. and i am honored to accept you as who and what you are. not for someone you wanted to be. but then, there are things, for now, better left unsaid. for both of us. might be too soon to be reveiled. but deep in my heart, i am happy being just being with you. u have always made my day, made me laugh, gave me precious reminders and guidance, in every single day since i met you. please, don't ever let me go.

nevertheless,
it we are meant to be, the time will come. but i hope, with His bless, i would to have you for my own. never stop trying, never stop believing, never stop have faith in Him that everything happened has reasons.

anyway, thank you for everything, dear friend..

aman..tenang...?

sejak dua menjak ni, perjalanan hari saya lebih 'aman'. walaupun still, ada hickups di sana sini, tapi saya tetap maintain cool. kalau dulu, kebiasaannya, kalau ade hickup sikit je, mesti saya dh gabra. sekarang ni cam takde gabra sgt, well, takde se-horror mcm dulu kan. lebih cool dan tenang. :))

saya rasa 'blessed' atas segala yang terjadi pada saya. tak kira yang baik mahupun yang tidak baik. pasti ada hikmahnya. saya sgt bernasib baik sbb masih diberi peluang untuk memperbetulkan kesilapan saya, masih diberi masa untuk memperbaiki diri. masih diberi peluang untuk mengenali dan 'explore' perkara baru (hopefully yg baik2 shj) serta mengenali orang yang baik-baik yang boleh dijadikan guidance atau panduan.

syukur alhamdulillah.

saya harap, dan saya akan berusaha untuk menjadi lebih baik dari semalam dan melakukan sesuatu yang sebaiknya yang saya boleh. dengan support family & kawan2 yang setia dan memahami, itulah intipati atau rumusan yang terbaik untuk saya menjalani hari-hari saya dengan lebih gembira dan tenang insyaAllah.

di samping, semestinya, dan masih berusaha mencapainya : hati yang sentiasa mengingati DIA.

segala yang baik, datang daripada DIA. yang tidak baik adalah dari diri kita sendiri.

wallahualam.

bila lagi nie...

bila la agaknye dapat makan lagi kat Nasi Lemak Antarabangsa, Kampung Baru KL nie yek.. ada orang tu kata nak belanja.. lagi.. hehehe.. ;)

p/s: terima kasih en.zul [bukan nama sebenar].. belanja makan nasi lemak kat belakang dewan [dewan ape ekkk.. hihi]. you know who you are ;)

berehat sebentar..

Ahad, 21 September 2008..

hehe, masa ni nk berbuka puasa kat IKEA Mutiara Damansara. sikit punya ramai orang beratur nk beli kupon berbuka di Cafe IKEA tu. buffet rm15 per head. agak murah sehh. bukan orang sebarangan tau yang boleh masuk ke dalam cafe untuk menikmati buffet berbuka puasa itu.. hanya mereka yang menampal pelekat pada lengan baju, atau dahi atau tangan atau mana2 bahagian badan yang difikirkan sesuai, sahaja yang dibenarkan masuk. so, last2 AJ yg nak tunggu dlm barisan. dengan kata lain, AJ lah yang nak belanja kami semua. eheheh..

saya, ibubapa dan Armand pun berjalan2 la dlm showroon situ. armand beriya-iya le ke satu spot dipamerkan kerusi rehat yang bermacam jenis (setiap jenis denn tak reti nk menyebut namanya.. heh..). turut menjerit dari kejauhan, memanggil saya dan To'ki nya untuk mencuba kerusi2 tersebut. dan ini lah aksi kedua-dua beranak nie :

lepas tu, konon nk eksyen kut, mengatakan "Armand has 2 massage chairs at home, back in Bangi..." ahahaaha.. right..

last2 tak jadi pun nk berbuka kat Cafe IKEA tu, sbb dh penuh sgt2. so, hajat nk pakai sticker pelekat hijau kat baju, konon-konon mcm VVIP la, tak kesampaian. huhu..

tapi sebagai dalang gantinya, kami berbuka dengan hidangan HOT Wrap di perkarangan The Curve.. sempoi giler, just order je Wrap yg diminati (actually ni 1st time saya merasai makanan di gerai 'comel' itu) - Chicken Cheese Crispy Wrap - dan segelas Milo/Teh Limau Ais. Kakak yang kat gerai tu membuka radio untuk mendengar azan Maghrib. then, that's it. itulah juadah berbuka kami pada hari itu. rasa cam seronok lak sesekali mcm tu ek. hihi..

then, after Maghrib, we were off to Sunway Damansara, to JOM SANTAI Restaurant. pun best jugak.. i love the food they serve there. dan kinda in reasonable n affortable price too. utk kami 4 orang dewasa makan, tak sampai rm50. Boleh laa..

okay, next time i'll write about my experience @ Jom Santai, Sunway Damansara k..

chiow for now~!

selamat berpuasa

whoa, so long i haven't updated my writings here. quite a while, and there were many things happened. erm, well.. lets cut the stories short shall we.

hm, it almost the end of ramadhan actually, so i would like to wish "Salam Ramadhan n Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir & Batin".. and during this holy month, i get the chance to be with my beloved family, here with me in KL. we have a nice buka puasa session together. and not to forget, my dear friends.. we also had a good time buka puasa together and for the first time, we had it at my new place @ Pelangi Damansara. ;)

and during the fasting month, i also learnt that, the past is past which cannot and will not be coming back again. all the bitter sweet memories has left an impact in my life which i learnt a lot. i learnt that, every single thing that happen in our life MUST have a reason. that's the rule we can't change because HE, God the Almighty, knows what's best for us. all the unexpected things, whether good or bad, must have reason behind it. HE wants us to learn from our mistakes because HE loves us very much. and HE showed me something, that what had happened to me in my previous experience, is not the best for me.

Alhamdulillah... Thank You Allah... :)

so now, shall i move on and open another new chapter in my book of life.. a new, fresh page ;)

sometimes.. we' ve gotta..

Sometimes we've gotta run away so we can see who will run after us.
Sometimes we've gotta talk quieter so we can see who's listening.
Sometimes we've gotta step up in a fight so we can see who is by our side.
Sometimes we've gotta make wrong decisions so we can see who is there to fix it.

Sometimes we've gotta let go of the one we love just to see if they love us enough for them to come back.

I think these make sense, especially the last one.. ;)

..Sir Patrick..

Suddenly today.. i feel that i miss 'Sir Patrick' so much. Never been in this way before. Hope that Sir Patrick is doing well today, and the following days coming.

I also feel that for this time being i have to sort of ''let it go", and enjoy myself. If the feelings and the moments we had were all true, it will come back. If it's not.. then it is actually never meant to be.

But at least, those are happy moments.. I won't forget every single second. It has touched my life differently. Sir Patrick has made me so happy.

Thank You Sir Patrick.. Hope you'll find what you are looking for and I'll be happy for you no matter what. Take care my friend..

will you?

i had a nice weekend, really made me happy.

Buat pertama kali saya ke Utara tanahair atas urusan rasmi. Satu journey yg menyeronokkan. Tidak disangka saya akan sampai juga ke situ. Saya based kat Sg Petani selama 2 hari. Tanpa perancangan langsung, I met a long time friend at Kedah. Asalnya ingatkan dia ni ada kat Kulim, rupanya ada kat Sungai Petani jugak. Sepanjang 2 hari kat Sg Petani tak teringat langsung pasal dia. Time nak balik KL baru teringat nak call dia. So ended up we all hangout at her in-law's place.

Then i also met another friend. He picked me up as soon as i reached SP. We had a nice lunch on the 1st day i arrived and we had another lunch date at Alor Setar on the next day. His choice of place was superb where we had our lunch by the river. Angin sepoi2 bahasa sambil menjamu selera masakan kampung. wow.. mmg best giler. Sepanjang saya berada di sana, saya seronok. InsyaAllah, semoga dapat bertemu lagi..

----xxxx-----xxxx------

Nothing's impossible
Nothing's unreachable
When I am weary
You make me stronger

This love is beautiful
So unforgettable
I feel no winter cold
When we're together

Will you stand by me
Hold on and never let me go
Will you stand by me
With you I know I belong
When the story gets told

When day turns into night
I look into your eyes
I see my future now
All the world and its wonder

This love won't fade away
And through the hardest days
I'll never question us
You are the reason
My only reason

I am blessed to find what I need
In a world loosing hope
You're my only believe

You make things right
Everytime after time

Stand by me
No more darling
I want you by my side
I want you hear with me

[taken from 'Stand by Me', Shayne Ward]

we wouldn't know

Why is it always like this.. When we feel that we fond of someone who was really been with us consistently, then suddenly just 'went off'..? We really miss them, today. How about tomorrow? The day after tomorrow? We wouldn't know..

28072008 - really miss those moments..badly..

i let you..

ku membenarkan jiwaku untuk mencintaimu
ku persembahkan hidupku untuk bersama kamu
dan diriku untuk kamu
belum pernah kumerasai begitu

semua itu telah berlalu harapan ku palsu
dan mungkin hari yang satu terus ku tertunggu
dihatiku masih kamu
belum pernah ku ingin terus menunggu

aku lemah tanpa kamu
ku ingin mu dampingiku
aku fahami aku bukan terbaik untuk dirimu

sampai syurga kumenunggu
sampai syurga kucintamu
hanya satu hanya kamu

ku membiarkan hatiku untuk merinduimu
ku menghamparkan sakitku untuk tatapan kamu
bersamamu harapanku
hilang dlm terang yang membutakanku

dan segalanya yang ku ada
ku berikan semua untuk dirimu saja

ku mahu dirimu bahagia untuk selamanya
biar sampai syurga
aku mununggu cinta darimu agar ku sempurna

namun aku tetap aku
yang terbaik untuk diriku hanya satu

aku lemah tanpa kamu
kuingin mendampingiku
aku fahami aku bukan terbaik untuk dirimu

sampai syurga kumenunggu
sampai syurga kucintamu
hanya kamu

[taken from 'Sampai Syurga' by Faizal Tahir]

it's fate

how come we are always attracting something that is not even in our league??
is it just our fate? no one knows, except for The Almighty..

---xxxxx----p/s: Really2 love this song~!---xxxxx----

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracksand now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out

I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait,
I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love

Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family
And It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Scooch closer dear and i will nibble your ear
I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer

My breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what i be saying is there ain't no better reason

To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is shortthis is our fate,
I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find the sky is yours

Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
A lá one big family
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No please, don't complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours...

[taken from "I'm Yours" by Jason Marz]

cinta tak datang hanya sekali

http://www.sepithemovie.com

Akan ditayangkan bermula 26 Jun 2008 ni. Jom tengok~!

p/s: Rasa2 kene prepare sekotak tissue sebelum nak masuk panggung nie.. heh.. plus, i got someone to accompany me to see this movie on this June 28th. Thanks Kay [bukan nama sebenar], bestnyerr ~! ;)

denial.. again?

why am i feeling like this? we waited for the person to reach/call us (macam nak gila dibuatnya, it's like we are 'missing' them so much). but when the person did, he/she drives us crazy??

why why why??

am i still living in denial, again??

kejora..

Dirimu persis bintang terbit dari langit
Bukanlah mimpi-mimpiku
Di sini telah datang sayang paling dalam
Bawaku pulang berteman pelangi

Kamar hati ku hiasi
Biar cantik biar baru
Semuanya keranamu

Oh yang lemah kini gagah
Asal buruk jadi indah
Kerana sentuhan cintamu

Ku susun langkah melayarkan hari indah
Bersamamu

Lilin diri takkan padam
Seandainya engkau adalah sumbunya

Kaulah puteri ku dambakan
Bidadari syurga jelmaan dunia

Akan ku jaga
Seluruh jiwaku
Biarlah karam berdua
Asal kau tak terlepas
Dari genggamanku

Biar kulamar
Sahih darimu
Menjadi ratu
Beradu dalam pelukanku

Kejoraku bersatu

[taken from 'Kejoraku Bersatu', Search]

have i learnt enough??

sejak beberapa minggu ni, macam-macam telah berlaku. semua yang berlaku itu mesti bersebab. mesti punya! saya teruskan mencari kenapa semua itu berlaku, tapi masih tak jumpa jawapan yang tepat. sungguh banyak kemungkinan dan kebarangkalian.

ada yang bermula dengan tanda tanya, ada yang bermula dengan kemanisan. namun, akhirnya berakhir dengan tiba-tiba.. hilang begitu sahaja. meninggalkan seribu penyesalan, kekeliruan dan ketidakpastian. elemen kecewa dan sedih pasti ada. kesannya amat mendalam.

setiap apa yang berlaku pasti ada hikmahnya. semuanya datang dari-Nya. mesti ada sebab kenapa kita ditemukan dengan seseorang atau sesuatu. mengajar dan menguji kita, adakah kita belajar daripada kesilapan lalu. mungkin..

saya bernasib baik, sangat bernasib baik sebenarnya. saya rasa kerana Dia segera menunjukkan saya bahawa sesuatu itu tidak semestinya mendatangkan sesuatu yang baik walaupun kita berusaha untuk menjadikannya suatu yang baik. mesti ada kekurangan dan kelebihannya. mungkin Dia hendak menjauhkan saya dari terus-terusan berada dalam keadaan yang tidak pasti dan lebih menjurus pada yang negatif. Syukur alhamdulillah.. mungkin dengan ini saya akan lebih matang dan kuat. Mungkin Dia mahu melindungi saya daripada yang perkara-perkara yang tak baik.

harapan saya, agar semuanya akan kembali baik seperti sediakala dan seperti yang dirancangkan.

..so perfect..

Kau begitu sempurna
Di mataku kau begitu indah
Kau membuat diriku akan selalu memujamu

Di setiap langkahku
ku kanselalu memikirkan dirimu
Tak bisa ku bayangkan
Hidupku tanpa cintamu

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
tak kan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidup ku lengkapi diriku
Oh sayang engkau begitu sempurna

Kau genggam tanganku
saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh
kau bisikkan dan hapus semua sesalku

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidup ku lengkapi diriku
Oh sayang engkau begitu sempurna
Sayangku engkau begitu sempurna..

[taken from 'Sempurna' OST Love]

..bukti..

Dalam lembah yang gelita
Tak nampak wajah
Apatah nak ku melangkah
Merangkak pun payah

Percik api menyala
Bagai satu petanda
Jauh mana kan aku damba

Dalam jiwa yang cedera
Tak nampak cinta
Apatah nak ku gembira
Tersenyum pun paksa

Bibit kasihmu dinda
Susah mana pun aku
Akan menyusurinya

Air… mata….Ku tahan…Mengalir lesu dalam kalbu..

Dingin.. lalu…Membeku…Menjadi bukti luhur niatku…

Dalam hidup yang gelora
Tak nampak dosa
Apatah nak bercinta
Merindu dedah..

Kerdip sinar di mata
Bagai satu petanda
Sukar mana kan aku puja

Air… mata…Ku tahan…Mengalir lesu dalam kalbu

Dingin… lalu…Membeku…Menjadi bukti luhur niatku

Hanya kepadamu
Tinggal harapan kasih
Buat diri ini
Kembali berasmara

Air… mata….Ku tahan…Mengalir lesu dalam kalbu

Dingin… lalu…Membeku…Menjadi bukti luhur niatku...

[taken from the song 'Bukti' by Fiq]